Thursday 24 November 2011

Silent Awe

Loch Awe, Scotland

My flesh trembles in fear of you; I stand in awe of your laws. 
(Psalm 119:120)


I could never be described as “verbally verbose” as my family and friends will testify. Instead, I am a “reflective ruminator” and have found in writing a perfect outlet for my thoughts about God.

And now I find myself in an unusual position where words will not come, sentences get typed and deleted, once even a whole post was published and then deleted.

I have been so conscious these last few weeks of an urge to know God better, to really pursue Him with all I possess, to stand in the council of the Lord (Jer 23:18). As I have sought Him, I have been undone by the Holy Law of God which emptied me of any self-reliance and drove me into the open arms of Grace.

And with the scars of attempting to live by the perfect Law of God still fresh in my mind, to “Do this and live”, I see once again the huge gulf between the Holiness of God and the sinfulness of man. And whilst I taste of the sweetness of Grace once again and the blessed comfort of coming to One who calls “It is finished! Come and follow me!” I look around me at the world in which I live which knows nothing of Grace, and suppresses the truth of God’s law in its conscience as it follows after wickedness, and my flesh trembles in fear of God and I stand in awe of His laws and His judgements.

“But the LORD is in his holy temple; let all the earth be silent before him.” Hab 2:20.

“Be silent before the Sovereign LORD, for the day of the LORD is near.” 
Zeph 1:7


Sometimes silent awe before a Holy God is all we can offer. 



6 comments:

  1. Diana,

    Your post is most timely. I find myself speechless quite often these days and silence is what I crave most as I seek to know him more and more through his word and reflect on his holiness. "Sometimes silent awe before a Holy God is all we can offer." Amen, amen, dear sister.

    I love you dearly, Diana, and am so blessed by what you share.

    Ruth

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  2. My dear Diana,

    I agree, so many times our best prayers are our silences. I have been there.

    Love you dearly.

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  3. Diana -

    I too have felt such a stirring in my spirit in the past few weeks - and indeed it is difficult to describe.

    The Holy Spirit is moving in the hearts of His people.

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  4. Ruth and Becky - thank you so much for sharing your similar experiences. You both always encourage me so!

    Ali - thank you so much for stopping by and adding your comment. Again, I am so encouraged to hear that others are feeling the same. God bless you.

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  5. Silet, reverent awe...yes. :) Of the One Who created it all! He is so good, so very good! <3

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